Yay! I am back!!!!!! I don't have internet still but my AWESOME new phone gives me access to this website now!!!!!! I will update here and there to catch this back up. :)

Maddy got her kindergarten immunizations on Monday. Four shots!! Last night I noticed her thigh was red and hot to the touch. I took her to the ED at Jordan Valley Medical Center and they said she has cellulitis. It's a skin infection right under the surface. She ended up getting an IV and she is on 2 different antiobiotics for 10 days. I feel so bad for her. She limps when she walks and hasn't been to preschool since Monday. :(

Maddy eating a popsicle... right after she had an IV put in. We are waiting for the meds right now.

The area of her leg that is affected.

Another pic.. before the doctor outlined it with ink.

Maddy cheesin for the cam. Ü

Brian surprised me with tickets to see Boyz II Men in Wendover, and we went last Friday night. It was AWESOME!!!! I love them so much! Brian also surprised me with tickets to see them when we first started dating. The concert was good and I really enjoyed myself. There were a few girls a few rows in front of us that ruined our view by standing in our way the whole time. I think they were doing it to be snots.

My mom watched the girls while we were out of town and I am very unhappy with how things were handled there. Tawni and Haylee both have asthma. My mom said she only smokes outside. Well, Haylee texted me about 4 am on Saturday morning saying Tawni could not breathe. So I called her and told her to tell my mom. My mom has experience with kids with asthma, because my sister has it. So Tawni went to tell my mom and my mom brushed her off for 2 HOURS!!!!!! She told her to blow her nose and go to sleep. She didn't hear wheezing like my sister gets. So finally after Tawni started crying, (which she never does unless she is SERIOUSLY not feeling well) and Haylee saying Tawni couldn't even talk anymore cuz it hurt her chest too much, my mom finally decides to take her..... HOME!!! I told the girls she needs the ED and she finally decided to take her to the ED.... AFTER she goes DOWNSTAIRS to smoke a cigarette first. I am so mad that she needed a SMOKE BREAK all while my daughter can't breathe!! The doctor checked her O2 levels and they were good but he heard wheezing through his stethoscope when he listened to her lungs. He gave her a treatment and another inhaler. She is fine now, but it seems like I can't trust anyone with my kids. My mom feels bad, but the fact that she lied and said she only smokes outside now, and the fact that she had to smoke before taking Tawni to the ED.... well, I am not too happy.

Today was fashion disaster today at Tawni's school. I think she did good.....



Haylee went on a field trip today and her teacher texted me a picture of her rock climbing. Looks like she did great and she said it was not hard even with her acrylic nails on.



Maddy needed to go potty the other night and Haylee was in the bathroom and Maddy started pounding on the door saying, "Haylee let me in! I need to go potty!
I need to get the living crap outta me!" haha!!

I can tell my kitten Shiloh is not feeling good. For the last few days he has not been himself. I hope he feels better soon.

Brian and I went to our second counseling session yesterday and it was decided that I am going to go to individual counseling and our marriage counseling will be put on hold. I don't want it to be put on hold, but I also think that going myself can be helpful for our marriage to work.

Still no job....

We went to the fitness center tonight and Maddy dragged me to the theatre area, where she put on a cute play for me. She is my little actress... she could be a star!!


Tawni went rock climbing.

Tawni decided to try on her friends glasses. I thought they looked way cute on her... apparently she thought so too... she said she looks hot. haha

I didn't get any pics of Haylee. She went swimming and I had to stay in the play area with Maddy.... next time. Ü

Tomorrow I take Maddy to the doctor to see what to do next about the lump on both sides of her neck. She hates them. They don't bother her, she just wants them gone.

Brian got me this for Valentine's Day. It is so dang cute!!





My dads friend gave these to me for Valentine's Day. On the petals she put I love you and Happy Valentine's Day in gold writing. So cute!

We went to Iggy's for my sweet sisters birthday. It was awesome with everyone in the family there! Ü

After Maddy went and played with some bears. She didn't play too long. It was starting to rain.




OMGosh!!! I found a grey hair!!!!..... in Maddy's hair!!! She thinks its awesome!!! I don't. :( Way too young...

I might already have another job. At my sisters work. Fresh Market on 33rd south and 9th east, or somewhere around there. LOL I will be working in the fuel center. It looks promising!! Ü

Still have my dang sore throat. The pain is manageable. Hurts to swollow but no fevers and such.

I pierced Haylee's ear in 2 places. It looks so pretty!


A couple of weeks ago we made our own picture frames. Here is how they turned out. Maddy had a BLAST making a mess! Haha! Even Tawni enjoyed it! She messed up and had to re-do hers. LOL Going to make rock magnets next.

My picture frame. I am going to put my kidlets picture in it.


Tawni's picture frame. She is going to put a picture of her and Evan in it.


Maddy's picture frame. She has her and her friends picture in it.


Haylee's picture frame. She put her and her friends picture in it.


I was browsing the web last night and found this next pic. If Brian and I get the chance to renew our vows, this is the cake I want.... is this so me or what??

I took Haylee in to her doc yesterday to make sure her sore throat wasn't strep. We saw his partner, (who by the way looks like Matt Damon's twin), and the rapid test they did showed no strep. Thank goodness. But today I woke up with a very sore throat and there are white spots on my tonsils. UGH!!! I swear anyone mentions strep and I will get it. GET THESE TONSILS OUT NOWWWWW!!!! I will give it a few more days to see if my throat feels better. If not I will go in. I have 9 days from today to get treated before I am at risk for rheumatic fever.

Tawni and I went back to the hospital to get her stitches taken out. She was so nervous. She did awesome though. She likes to write I LOVE EVAN on her hand and the doctor who looked at her hand says, You love Evan? Tawni smiled and said yeah. He says Do you think you will still love him in 20 years? Tawni said yeah. And he said good. That dives me some hope. Ü So after the tech came in and took out her stitches, when he left, he said, Good luck with Evan!! haha By far the best experience we EVER had a Pioneer Valley Hospital.



Before her stitches are out.


After they are taken out.

I got fired from my job. :( I am so upset. I got penalized for having to take Tawni to get stitches and for clocking in ONE minute early a few weeks ago. UGH. Me and my friends Stef and Katrina are going to go to the dept of workforce services on Tuesday. I hope Hope HOPE we can all find something together. How awesome would that be???

Haylee and Maddy are sick. I am taking Haylee in to the pediatrician tomorrow. She can barely talk, eat, swallow. I am concerned it is strep. Maddy just has a cold. Poor babies.

As most of you know, I am a teeny tiny bit obsessed with hearts. My house is done is heart decor. Here are some pictures.

Tawni's cut


Tawni's stitches

I got a call from Tawni while I was at work tonight and she had cut her hand open in the web... the area between the thumb and the pointer finger. I was able to go home early and I took her to the hospital where she got 2 stitches. She was so scared but did AWESOME!!!

Tawni has bronchitis which is triggering her to have some asthmatic issues. :( She is on an antibiotic and a steroid. I guess her going up for adoption will be postponed until she is well again... Hehe... the only reason I typed that is she is reading this over my shoulder. HAHA ;)

Work is still great! We don't have any Christmas stuff anymore. We threw away all broken stuff and donated all the rest. I am so glad. It used to be just thrown away but being under new upper management they decided to donate. Everything went to 90% off and I got the cutest table centerpiece for $6, normally $60! I was eyeing it on Friday and was going to buy it when it was $12 but forgot and the next day I saw it was marked down to $6! I was so excited!! I will have to take a pic to post it on here. Ü

My Aunt Pat passed away yesterday after a very short battle with cancer. I only found out about it in the last week of October. So to me it was a short battle. She is being cremated and half her ashes will be spread in California where she lived for several years until her death, and half will be buried here in Salt Lake where she used to live while I was growing up, and still has a lot of family.

I remember being at her house when she made fried wontons and I remember her buying me a cool watch that you could change the bands to match your outfit.

I hadn't talked to her in a few years.

RIP Aunt Pat!
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YAY!!! I get my baby niece on Friday!!!! She is going to sleepover. I am so EXCITED!!!!!!!!

Maddy's blood work came back as good. :) Now it's probably a referral to an ENT next.

I hear my work is going to train me on the cash registers next week.... UGH!!!! Way sucky! I don't wanna!!!

Come to my store and see me! And buy some Christmas clearance! We have tons for 80% off EVERYTHING Christmas!! Still have so much stuff! :)

That's it for now!

Love and Hugs!!

YAY!!!!! I am so happy that we have 3 new people at work. I hope they stay because it will be a lot easier at work with more people to help out. I had to help train one of them. One of the managers was fired for attendance. It's sad, everyone liked him.

I am not sure if I wrote about Maddy but about a month and a half ago, I noticed a lump on her neck. I took her in and we decided to watch it. It didn't go away so I took her in again, and it turned out she had an ear infection, sinus infection and a throat infection and was put on antibiotics. The antibiotics worked but the lump is still there. Her pediatrician thought it was a sign of localized infection. It's still there so he did blood work and a TB test which we have to get the TB test read on Friday. The blood work is checking her WBC which includes cancer... leukemia. I am certain it is not cancer or anything bad. her doc is pretty sure too. So if all the tests come back negative, she is going to be referred to an ENT to see what they think. Next is probably biopsy. Please pray that it goes away.

Loves and hugs!

ARGH!! Stupid headache! Didn't get to go to the college today. Its a pretty bad one. Hoping now for Thursday. :(

Headaches SUCK!!! Mine is really bad tonight.

I am hopefully going to the college tomorrow to get info on going back to school. Brian is coming with me so he can ask questions. I want to go when I drop Maddy off at school so she is not running around while we are finding stuff out.

Brian and I went on a lunch date today. I had a great time with him. I wish things were back to normal with us. It felt more like normal today. Not filled with tension. It was nice. We were supposed to see a movie too but he had to go to work earlier than normal so that will be something we will do at a later time.

Becoming a nurse I think will be awesome. Heck doing anything in the medical field will be something I will love to get into. I just feel like my life would not be complete if I was not in it one way or another. Is that weird??

Nothing new to report. LOL Boring boring boring! Work is still going good. I am still enjoying it.

Tawni is going up for adoption..... she just now informed me that NEXT year, she will be 15! Why does she do that to me???? :)

Brian and I are doing better. Sometimes it seems like he is picking fights though and it makes me sad. I hope that's just my imagination.

He has a surprise for me and he won't tell me about it. He said he can't wait to see my face and the wait is killing him too. He said it is out of town and I will need to take a few days off from work but he will talk to my boss because he doesn't want me to know when it is. ARGH!!!

I pierced my upper ear again and I love it! :) haha
That is about it.

Take care... loves and hugs!!

I can't believe that it is 2010 already!! Last decade was not the best. Here is to hoping this one will be way better!!!!

I hope you all have a wonderful 2010!!

Tomorrow is my 34th birthday. Cash gifts are accepted! HAHA Just kidding! Everyone says that I look to be in my late 20's than my mid- (GASP!!!) 30's. Okay let's not dwell on that anymore.

My sister and her boyfriend are taking me out tonight to dinner at my favorite restaurant... Dee's!! MMMMMM She is so good to me, I wish I had the extra money to do something nice to totally repay her for everything that sweet girl does for me and the kidlets.

Work has definitely slowed down and it is nice. It really sucks being pulled in 5 different directions all at once. We got our seasonal truck yesterday for Valentines Day, and if you know me at all, you know I have a fondness for anything sparkly pink and in the shape of a heart, so you can imagine how excited I was when I would open up a box to stock it and see something I absolutely HAD TO HAVE!! Once, my friend Mary, who was working on the same pile of boxes I was working on, actually had to tell me to breathe when I saw the CUTEST pink sparkly heart shaped wall decoration! HAHA I am so lame!

Maddy today asked me if I had eaten her when she was a baby, because that is how she thought she got into my tummy! haha This girl is seriously a DRAMA-QUEEN!!!! Brian told her how slly she was and she went into my room BAWLING at the yop of her lungs too! The threw herself onto my bed and would not let anyone console her..... I think its time we enroll this natural born actress into classes. I mean I can't retire on my salary. haha Just kidding. All I want is a Mercedes Benz convertible. ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! LOVE YOU ALL!

***UPDATE*** My sister took me to Iggy's instead of Dee's. MMMMM! I have never been there before and I am sorry Dee's, but Iggy's is now my favorite!!